Meri pyaari kunwari behnon, Mera naam Nagma hai. Aaj main aapko meri
kahani batati hoon. Yeh meri zindagi ki sachi kahani hai. Aap log
yauvan ke dahleej par kadam rakhte hi zindagi ke haseen anubhavon ke
barey mein rangeen sapne dekhna shuru kar diye honge. Aise sapne maine
bhi dekhi thi jab mein 17 saal ki ho gai thi.
Meri janam ek madhyam vargiya parivar mein hui. Mere pitaji kisi
sarkari company ke daftar mein choti si post par kaam karte the. Maa ek
ache ghar se thi lekin sampradaya aur parampara ke anusaar pati ke ghar
ko apna sansaar aur pati ki seva apna dharam maanti chali. Pitaji ke
teen aur bhai the. Sab ache padhai aur tarakki ke vajah se ache din
dekh rahe the. Pitaji padhai mein utney chalaak aur tej nahi the. Upar
se bachpan se hi unme aatma vishwas aur khuddari ki kami thi.
Dhiraj
aur karmathta kam, self pity aur low self esteem zyaada. Unki ek hi
khoobi thi. Unke pitaji ka bada aadar tha. Khandaan ke naam par meri
maa ki shaadi unse kar di gayi thi. Maa kabhi kuch maangne walon mein
se nahi thi. Jo mila usise santusht thi. Bahut khoobsurat bhi thi. Unki
khoobsurti ke vajah se pitaaji ki aatma samman aur bhi kam ho gayi.
Pitaji kabhi zindagi mein prayas nahi ki. Ulta apne jaison ke
sangat mein apni badkismati ki khulkar charcha karte rahte. Aise sangat
mein unki mulakat ek naujavan se hui jo unke jaise hi tha. Jab apne
jaise mil jaate toh dosti badh jaati hai. Pitaji us naujavan ko apna
khas dost maanne lage aur din raat donon apni choti zindagi ki
takleefein ek dusre ke saath baante rahte. Woh naujavan bhi Pitaji ke
daftar mein kaam kar raha tha. Unki dosti ek din aise modh par aa gayi
ki pitaji ne use apna daamaad banane ka nischay kar liye.
Meri do badi behnen thi. Dono ki shaadi ho gayi thi. Ham teenon ek
dusre ke kaafi kareeb they. Behnen apni suhaag raat aur grihasth jeevan
ki rangeen anubhavon ke rahasya mere saath banthtey they. Mein us ladke
ke baare mein nahin jaanti thi. Shaadi turant pakki ho gayi. Maa thode
hi mana karne wali thi? Upar se sarkari naukri thi. Andar ki baatein
kisko pata? Ladka bhi tayyar tha. Mein bholi bhaali si thi magar maa
par gayi aur kaafi khubsurat thi. Matric tak padhi thi lekin sajne
savarne mein pakki thi. Zaahir hai saaheb turant raazi ho gaye. Aur
behnon ki kisson ke prerit hokar mein vahi sunehre sapne dekha karti
thi jo aap log shayad abhi dekh rahe hai.
Ladkon ke baare mei toh 15 ve saal se hi soch rahi thi. 17 saal ke
umar mein meri khayalein sex ke baare thi. Suhaag raat kaise kategi,
pati ke baahon mein kaise sukh praapt hoga, sambhog aur kaam kala ke
aasan kis tarah ke honge, rati sukh kaisa hoga, mard ka kaamang kaisa
hoga – aise rangeen khayal meri javani ki garmi ko aur hava dene lagi.
Saheliyon ke sangat mein kuch aise shareerik harkaton ke baare
mein gyaan praapt hui jisse rati sukh svayam anubhav karne ka mauka
mila. Hast prayog mein mazaa tab aane laga jab tan ki garmi badhane
mein madad mili un haseen kitab aur patrikaon se jinme aadmi aurat ke
beech ki rasbhari sex kaand ki khulkar varnan hui. In kitabon ke
badaulat mujhe poora sex gyaan prapt hua aur mein achi tarah se samajh
gai ki ekant mein ek manchaha mard ke saath kya karna chahiye.
Shaam ko jab Chandar college se laut aaya. Chai dene ke bahane uske
kamre maein gayi aur baatcheet chedne ki prayas ki. Chandar bada hi
sharmeela tha. Meri taraf dekh bhi nahi raha tha aur nazar bachate huye
baat kar raha tha. Main ek peele rang ki paardarshi saadi aur safed
rang ki paardarshi blouse pehni huyi thi. Blouse kaafi sexy kism ki thi
aur meri sthan ki golayi blouse ke beechon beech se bahar nikale the.
Andar ki bra bhi kaafi sexy kism ki thi aur jis tarah se unme meri
golayian simte huye the saaf saaf nazar aa raha tha. Lekin jisko
dikhana chahti hoon voh to nazar bhi nahin mila raha tha. Yun hi
college ke baare mein kuch baaten karne lagi. Sharmate huye woh kuch
javab bhi de raha tha. Baaton Baaton mein usey puch padi “Kya tumhare
college mein ladkiyan padti nahin?” Usne kaha “padti hai lekin bahut
kam. Engineering mein arts aur commerece ke mukable kam ladkiyan hai”.
Phir maine poochcha “Koi special friend in ladkiyon mein?” Chandar
sharma gaya aur apne muh aur bhi neeche kar diya. Sharmate huye kaha ”
Nahin…aisa koi nahin”. Maine aur pooccha…”kya koi bhi girl friend
nahin? Tumhare umar ke ladkon ke liye ye to maamuli baat hai” Chandar
aur bhi sharmata raha aur main dheere dheere hamare beech ki doori
mitate gayi. “Chandar, sharmate kyon ho? Girl friend hona koi buri baat
nahin balki aaj kal to ye hi jaayaz hai ki ladka ladki apne jeevan
saathi khud chunle.” “batao…kabhi ladkiyon ke bare mein sochtey nahin
kya? Unke ore aakarshit nahin hote kya?” Chandar sharm se paani paani
ho gaya. badi mushkil se javaab diya “Ji maami, aisi koi baat
nahin…meri dhyaan to padhai mein hai. Competition zyaada hai. In sab
baaton ke liye waqt hi kahan…main aise maamlon mein bahut peeche
hoon” Mainne ek aur teer chodi “toh kya ye sab bekaar ki baatein hai?
Arre hamare zamane mein is umar ke ladke ldkiyon ki shaadi ho jaati aur
woh to suhaag raat bhi mana dalte aur bachche paida kar lete. Tumhara
generation toh fast hai aur tum kehte ho ki ladkiyon ke baare mein
sochte nahin ho…kya kisi ladki ko dekhkar aakarshan sa nahin hota?
Kuch nahin lagta tumhe? Aur aaj kal ke ladkiyan aise aise dress pehenti
hai…kuch to mahsoos hota hoga…unke kareeeb jaane ki ichcha…unse
baat karne ki ichcha…chhoone ki ichcha…kiss karne ki ichchaa…kuch
aur karne ki ichchaa…” Chandar ki aankhen ek dum badi ho gayi. Sharam
to aa rahio thi usey lekin meri baat sunkar usey aascharya bhi hua.. ”
Maami! Please!” usne zor se kaha aur sharm se muskurate huye muh modh
liya “Aisa kuch sochta nahin hoon…main seedha saada ladka hoon…”
Main muskura uthi….Chandar kitna seedha saada sa tha us raat ki
harkat ne khub dikhaya mujhe. Aisi sexy kitabein padta hai aur dekho
kaisa naatak kar raha hai! Main haar nahin maani…bada mazaa aa raha
thaa…mere andar bhi bahut kuch ho raha thaa..besharmi badh rahi thi.
” Itne bhi seedhe saade mat bano ki suhag raat ke din patni ko chhoona
door muh bhi dekhne se sharmao. Arrey is umar ein to sabko sex ki
jigyasa hoti hai…yeh to ek sahaj baat hai. Jijhak chodo aur khulkar
baat karo. Tum badhey ho gaye ho…sharmane se smart nahi ban sakte”.”
Chandar phir bhi muh modey huye sharm se muskura raha thaa. ” Theek hai
bhai…aur nahin poochti…lekin girl friend hona, ladkiyon ke ore
aakarshit hona ya sex ki baare mein sochna…ye sab buri baat nahin
hai. Arre aaj kal tumhare umar ke ladke ladki ek dusre ke saath sex bhi
kar lete hai. Sab chalta hai” Ye kehte huye mein kamre se nikal gayi.
Kal shanivar hai. Pati der se ghar aate aur woh bhi sharab ke nashe
mein. Har shanivar apne nikamme doston ke saath peete aur ghar laut kar
chup chaap so jaate. Chander ki college sirf aadhe din ke liye khulti
aur woh dopahar ko laut aata. Meri plan ke mutabik uske lautne ke baad
hum donon ke paas 10 ghanton ka ekaant samay hota. Isi dauran mein uske
saath kuch aur sansanikhej baatein chedkar gadde ke neeche rakhe kitab
aur condom uske saamne nikalti aur usey pralobhit karke apne vash me le
leti aur sex karne par majboor karti. Sharm aur laaj se woh puri tarah
merevash mein hoga. meri javaan jsim ko dekh uski neeyat to badlegi
hi…uske baad…… aap samaj sakte ho…
Jab tan ki pyaas bujhi to sab kuch badal sa gaya. Pehle jab bhi raat ke
andhere mein aiski harkat karti aur charam sukh ke sansanate huye pal
jab beet jaate toh aisa lagta ki achanak mera man pura saaf ho gaya
hai. Kuch hi pal pehle ki kartoot bura aur ashleel lagta tha? Apne
kukarm par pachtava hota tha. Lekin ab mujhe koi pachtava nahin tha.
Balki ek aisi chanchal masti chayi thi ki dobara karne ko ji chah raha
tha. Sex ki pyaasi to thi lekin is tarah ashleel sahitya ke sahare
jalte aag mein aur bhi ghee daal di maine. Bhari sanse bharti huyi
maine dobara un kitabon ke andar jhanka. Gande ashleel chitron ko
dekhthe hi ek nayi umang mere andar daudi. Bahut saare sansanikej
vichaar man mein janam le rahe they. Un vichaaron mein ek vichaar tha
ki Bhannja jab in kitabon ko padtha toh uske dimaag mein kaise khayal
aate ? Kisi ladki ke saath ye sab kuch karta hua sapna dekhta tha kya ?
Dimaag ki train ka brake fail ho gaya aur mere man mein aisi aisi
vichar aane lage ki maano koi bada sa baandh tut pada ho aur baandh
mein kaid paani uchal uchal kar behta jaa raha ho. Chandar (bhanje ka
naam) ki nangi jism ka drishya mere man mein aane laga. Thodi hi der
mein, khayalon mein apne aap ko bhanje ke saath sambhog karti huyi
dekhne lagi. Bas! Train patr se utr gayi aur khayalon ki duniya se asal
jagat mein aa pahunchi. Laaj aur sharm be doob gayi. Chee! Kitna ganda
khayal hai! Uthkar sab kuch theek kardi aur thande paani se naha li
taaki jism ki garmi mita sakoon. Nahane ke baad nightie pehen li aur
khana khakar bedroom mein leth gayi.
Ek bar chaska jo laga so laga. Yeh to pehle hi bata chuki hoon. Man jab
kaboo mein naa ho to daud padta hai. Aur mera man phir se train ki
tarah daud ne laga. Vahi ashleel vichaar phirse tung karne lagi mujhe.
Mastramji ke avaidh sambandh vaale kahaniyon mein mami- bhanje ki ek
sansanati huyi sex ki kahani thi jisme mami sab hadh par karte huye
bhannje ke saath aisi harkatein kar baithti jo ek pati patni bhi ekant
me karne se sharmate. Mami ki jagah apne aap ko dekhne lagi aur bhanje
ki jagah Chandar ko. Shareer mein current sa daud raha tha aur mein
behataash ho rahi thi. Aankhen mundi to yahi drushya, aankhen kholti to
phir se bandh karke vahi sapna dekhne ki ichcha! Man mein sharm aur
laaj ne masti aur vaasna se jung ched rahe the! Aakhir behekta hua man
sharm aur laaj ko apne aap se mita daala. Aakhir kab tak apni jism ko
aisi dand deti rahoongi.
32 saal ki umar aurat ke liye ek nayi janm hai. Shaadi shuda auratein
jab bachche paida karti to unki parvareish mein 10 saal kaat leti. Jab
bacche kuch badhey ho jaate aur maa ki mamta aur saharey se mukti
paakar padhai aur khel kood ki ore dhyaan badhatey to aurat ka man
nischit ho jata aur pati ke pyar ke liye dobara tarasne lagta. Shaadi
ke turant baad ladkiyan sharam aur laaj ke saath pati se milan karte
aur sex ki duniya mein pehla kadam rakhte. Tab unki aalochana aur
anubhav bahut naadaan sa hota hai. 30 saal ke umar kje baad, aurat
anubhavi aur pakke irade vaali ho jati. Sex mein dobara jab dilchaspi
jaagti toh sharam ke bajaye karyasheelta se sambhog mein bhaag leti aur
laaj ko chodkar nayi nayi tareekon se pati ke saath bistar ka khel
aazmane ki koshish karti hai. Pati bhi anubhavi ho jata hai aur patni
ko khub madad karta hai. Is tarah 30 saal ke umar ke baad pati patni
sex ki zindagi mein ek nayi umang lekar kood padte aur sex ka bharpoor
anand lete. Bache to nahi huye aur 10 saal se zyada tadpi thi. 32 saal
ke umar mein mera man bhi isi umar ke baki auraton ke tarah sexy ho
gaya. Aur muradein na pura hone ke kaaran kuch zyaada hi tadap raha
tha. Isiliye jo laaj aur sharm mujhe 12 saal pehle paap karne se roki
aaj vahi laaj aur sharm ko mera man baahar phenk di aur ichchaon ka
darwaza khol di. Pati ki naakamyabi mere saath ek dhoka saa tha. Pati
ko dhoka dena koi paap nahi lag raha tha. Agar woh kaamyaab aur normal
hote to aaj uunke saath khush rahti lekin unki barah saal ki bewafayi
ke saamne paraye mard ke saath sex ki aalochana paap nahi lag raha tha.
Aur to aur, bhanje ke saath sex karne se is paap ko ghar ke andar tak
seemit rakh sakti hoon. Kisi ko kuch pata nahi lagega. Vaise bi main
sirf sex chahti hoon….rishta nahi.
In sab baaton se man aur bhi nischit ho gaya aur main man hi man
Chandar se sambhog karne ka irada banayi. Apni is nayi roop se main
khud chanchal ho uthi. Bistar se uthkar maine aaine ke saamne khadi
huyi aur nighty nikaal kar apni hi jism ki jaanch karne lag gayi. Kaafi
sexy lag rahi thi meri hi chai mujhe. Aap logon ko bata doon ki ab mere
sthan bahut hi badhey they. Bra 36C ki size ki pehenti hoon. Unko jitna
bhi blouse, bra aur sari ke pallu ke sahare dhak doon, unki golayi aur
ubhaar ko chipa nahi sakti. Jo bhi mujhe dekhta, meri vaksh-sampada se
turant parichit ho jaata. Umar ke lihaze Nitambh bhi kaafi ubhar aaye
aur kamar chaudi aur jaangh bhari aur maansal lag rahe the. Jism ka
rang kaafi gora tha…maa ki den thi. Badi sexy lagti hoon. Un dinon
maike mein mohalle ke ladke bahut saare mere divane the. Aakhir Chandar
se meri jism ki kararapan kaise chipti? Zarror meri yauvan par gaur
kiya hoga. Shaayad meri nagna avasdha ko man mein basa kar hasth prayog
karta hoga! Chandar ko pataane ke liye ye sexy jism hi kaafi hai.
Agle din, pati office ja chuke they aur bhaanja college. Sab kam
nipatkar mein sfa par baithi TV dekh rahi thi ki achanak mujhe raat ki
kisse ka kahayal aaya. Main uthkar bhanje ke kamre mein gayi aur chaan
been ki. Almari se kuch nahi mila. Bistar ke neeche kuch nahi tha.
Lekin gadde ke neeche kuch magazine miley. Saath mein condom ki kuch
packet bhi. Mera sar charane laga. Kai kahayal ek saath aney lagi, dil
dhadak raha tha aur aisa lag raha tha ki main koi jasoos ki tarah kisi
dushman ke ghar mein chanbeen kar rahi thee aur kabhi bhi pakdi jaa
sakti. Lekin mein ghar mein akeli thi. Mere haath mein sex ki kitaben
thi aur mardon waali condom. Man chanchal ho utha. Usi bistar oar leth
kar maine condom ki ek packet kholkar andar ka padard bahar nikali.
Pehli baar ek condom ko haath mein le rahi thi. Isse pahle kabhi kareeb
se dehka nahi. Ajeeb sa lag raha tha ek choti si topi ki tarah. Packet
par likhe instruction padi aur turant ek khayal aaya. Apne kamre mein
jaakar usi mombatto ko le aayi jisse maine apne aap ko shanth kiya raat
mein. Mombatti mard ki kamaang ki tarah hi tha. Instruction dobar
padhkar Condom ko mombatti par chada di aur dekne lagi. Upar ek choti
si gubbare ki tarah tha. Shayad yahin veerya jama hota hai. Kafi
uttejna hui mujhe. Candle ko bagal mei rakhi aur kitabon ke panne
gumane lagi. 3 magazine jaise patli kitabein thi. Ek mein sex aasanon
mein leen videshi premiyon ke sexy nange chitr they aur unke harkaton
ka sankshipt varnan. Aisa lag raha tha jaise bahut sare photo ke sahare
kahani darshayi jaa rahi ho. Shuru se anth tak Ek daftar ke bade babu
aur uski secretary ke beech ki sharmnaak sambhog keli ka gehra aur
khaas varnan ho raha tha. Secretary apne boss ki garmi badhane ke liye
kaisi kamook prasang kar rahi hai aur boss tesh mein aakar secretary se
apni dil ki baat aur mil rahe sukh ka khulasa varnan kaise kar raha
hai…yahi tha. Sab hindi mein thi aur aise aise shabdon ka prayog hua
jo kaafi ashleel aur laingik they. Ladki boss ke motey tagde ling ki
prashansa kaafi ashleel aur rangeen shabdon mein kar rahi thi aur uske
saath kya kara chahti hai iska bhi khullam khulla varnan kar rahi thi.
Boss ladki ki madak sthan ko daba daba kar unka gun gaa raha thaa. Kuch
pannon ke baad aise gandi harkat padhi aur dekhi ki mera man vaasna se
jhoomne laga. Sabhi chitr sachey they….yaani ladka ladki sach much
sex kar rahe they jab unki photo kheenci gayi ho. Secretary apni boss
ki karare ling ko choos rahi thi. Is drushya ko dekh kar mere pet mein
ajeeb se harkat honey lage. Pehley kaafi ghinona aur ganda laga aur
ulti honey vaali thi. Lekin apne aap ko sambhaali aur gaur se us chitr
ko dekh rahi thi. Iske barey mein padhi to thi lekin pehli bar sachitr
dekh rahi thi.Vaasna ke aise lehar daudi meri dimaag mein ki main
cheekne lagi aur maadak seetakri bharne lagi. Mai apne aap ko sambhal
nahi paa rahi thi. Aur panne modey to aur bhi ashleel photo they. Ab
Aadmi aurat ki yoni choos raha tha. Anth mein veerya skhalan ka bhi
chitr tha. Boss apne secretary ke unnat vakshajon par veerya choda jo
saaf nazar aa raha tha kisi cream ki tarah.
Thodey der ke liye main let gayi aur anken moondh kar bhari saansen
lene lagi. Apne aap par kaabu payi aur uthkar chali gayi un gande
kitabon se. Lekin jo chaska ek baar laga so laga. Main reh nahi payi
aur ek ghante ke baad vapas ayi aur gadde ke neeche se kitab nikali.
Dusre do kitab kaafi kifayati kism ke print mein they. Ek mein chotr
bilkul nahi they. Dusre mein do chaar black and white photo they nangi
ladkiyon ki aur ek sambhog rat ladka ladki ke chitra. Main let kar
donon kitabon main chapi kahaniyan padne lagi. Dono ke lekhak koi
Mastram tha. Naam se lag raha tha koi ayyashi hoga. Pehli kahani bilkul
vaise thei jaise maine shaadi ke pahle patrikaon mein padha karti thi.
Mere andar kaam vaasna badhne lagi. Yoni se sraav nikal rahe they aur
garmi badh rahi thi. Apne pairon ko ek dusre se ragad ragad kar apne
aap ko kaboo mein laane ki bekaar si koshish kar rahi thi.
Dusri kahani jaise padhnelagi mere masthisk mein dubara bijli chalne
lagi. Sex ki kahani toh thi lekin aurat aur mard ke kaamangon ka zikr
ek dum gandi aur asheel bhasha ki shabdon se ki gayi thi. Lund, choot
ityadi. Ghinonepan ke bajaye ek ajeeb si masti chaa gayi mujh mein.
Aise shabdon ko pad pad kar kaafi acha lag raha thaa. Upar se kahani ek
devar aur bhabi ki avaidh sex sambandh ke sharmnaak karnaamon ke bare
mein thi. Kahani ke anth mein dono kaafi khush hai apni paap se. Teesri
kahani ne to meri dimaag ki batti lagbag bhuja hi daali. Ek bhole bhale
ladke ki balatkaar usi ki sexy aur vaasna bhari kunwari mausi ne ki.
Iska varnan purey detail ke saath hua hai. Mausi aur didi ke betey ke
beech ki sex kissa kitni chaw se likha mastram saab ne. Jaise jaise
kahaniyan padthi gayi, aise hi avaidh aur aprakrutik shareerik
sambandhon ka khula varnan hota gaya. Yahan tak ki Sauteli maa aur bete
ke gande sex ki harkat bhi varnit they. Sab kahani padne par aisa lag
raha tha ki Mastram ji Aprakrutik sambandhon ko jor de rahe they aur
unka samardhan kar rahe they. Sex keli ki detailed varnan gande sbadon
ke saath kaafi dilchaspi se kiye. Aurat ke gupt baatein jaise maahwari,
sanitary napkin, ityadi ke baarey mein khulkar likha usne. Mastram
aurat aur mard ke beech ka pehla sampark aur uske baad us parichay ka
dhirey dhirey sex sambandh mein badalney ki kisse bade hunar se likhe.
Ab toh main puri tarah sex ki daasi ho gayi. Anek khayal aa rahe they.
Avaidh sambandh ke baarey mein kai kahayken ek saath aa rahe they.
Masti mein sab acha lag raha thaa. Un kitabon ki ek khanai mein varnit
ek mahila ki hasth maithun ke kisse se mujhmein prerna jaag uthi condom
mein bhari candle ko ling banakar apne yoni mein lagayi aur haath hila
hila kar vahi sex anubhav payi jo sach much kisi mard ke ang se milta
ho.
12 saal guzar gaye. Ek pura vanvaas! Pati sirf roti kapda aur makaan ka
guarantee ban gaya. TV, Video, magazine, cinema, bunayi, silayi ityaadi
ke sahare maine itne saal sookhi jeevan bitayi..Bache naa hona mere
pati par koi asar nahi dala. Woh jaanta tha ki dosh usi mein hai. Bahar
log kya soch rahe they kya maloom. Kuch saheliyon ko maine yuhi bataya
ki ham donon mein kisi ko bhi koi kamzori nahi thi aur har koshish ke
bavajood bahca nahi hua. Ichaon ko daba kar rakhi. Sex jab chedne lagta
toh haathon se hi nivaran karti thi. Kriya kam davai zyaada ban gayi
thi hast prayog mere liye. 32 saal ki thi. Abhi bhi javaan. Lekin ek 50
saal ki aurat si thi meri jeevan.
Ek din pati ne bataya ki unke behn ka beta hamare yahan aa raha tha.
Matric khatam kiya aur engineering ki padhai ke liye hamare sheher ke
ek college me daakhila le li. Pati chate the ki use apne ghar mein hi
rakh kar padhai mein madad de. Unka maanna tha ki woh to badkismat hai
lekin is ladke ki kaamyaabi mein koi kasar na chodi jaye aur iski
tarakki mein apni saphalta ko saakar kare. Main kya bolti? Aise hazaar
baaten sun chuki thi. Is ladke ke aane se meri gharelu kaam badthi par
usse zyada aur kuch nahi hoga. Aur phir is ladke ka kya dosh? Bechara
woh hamare haalat se kaisa juda? Usey tho padhai karni hai. Maine
manzoori de di aur ghar ki ek bedroom use de di taaki woh wahan padhai
kar sake.
Kuch din beet gaye. Bhaanja hamare ghar mein puri tarah se adjust ho
gaya. Zyaada baat nahi karta. Main bhi koyi dilchaspi nahi dikhayi. Bas
pati ke sambandhi hone ke naate uske rahan sahan, khaney, piney ityadi
ki prabandh karne lagi. Kaafi padaku tha. Har vakt moti kitabon mein
khoya rahta. Waqt ka paabandh tha aur waqt par college jata, shaam ko
jaldi vapas aata, padhai karta, thodi TV dekh leta aur so jata. Maatra
avsar ki baatein hua karti hamare beech. Zaroorat padti to mujhe maami
pukarta aur apni baat kar leta.
Mer zidagi mein uske aane se turant koi bdlaav nahih hua. Ek raat pati
dev jaldi so gaye. Kuch der mai TV dekhti rahi. Vaise bhi bedroom mein
aur kya kaam. TV bandh karke magazine padhne lagi. TV bandh karne par
chayi achanak ki sannate mein mujhe kuch sunayi dene laga. Aisa lag
raha tha ki ghar ki kisi kone mein koi bhaari lakdi ki box ki hilne ki
avaaz. Ghart mein ek do chuchundar ghoom rahe they. Shayad kitchen ke
almari mein chuchundar koi harkat kar rahe they. Maine kitchen ki
chanbeen ki lekin awaaz wahan se nahi aa rahi thi. Jaisde maine mehman
wali bedroom ke paas guzri woh awaaz aur spasht hui. Lagta hai bedroom
ki almari se aa rahi hai. Darwaza bandh tha. Bhaanja so chuka tha
isilye darwaze par dastak dekar usey jagaana munasif nahi samjha. Lekin
aisa laga ki darwaza puri tarah bandh nahin tha. Dhire se maine kholne
lagi ki gap se andar ka drushya turant saamne ayi aur maine darwaze ko
wahi ka wahi pakdi khadi rahi. Kamre me zyadatar andhera tha aur sirf
ek reading lamp ki roshni thi. Bhanja bistar ke chchor par pet ke bal
leta hua tha. Upar kambhal odh li thi. Bistar ke niche bagal mein farsh
par ek kitaab thi aur aisa lag raha tha ki woh jaga tha aur lete lete
nichey us kitaab ko padh raha tha. Bistar ke bagal mein table thi jis
par rakhe reading lamp ki roshni seedha us kitaab par padh rahi thi.
Padaku abhi bhi kuch padh raha hai maine socha. Lekin is ajeeb avastha
mein kyun padh raha hai? Aram se baith kar padh sakta hai. Tabhi is
ajeeb aasan ka uddeshya dikhai di. Bhanja aage peeche hil raha tha aur
uski nitamb kambal ke andar upar neeche hil raha tha. Aisa lag raha tha
jaise woh aage peeche upar neeche badi tezi se hil raha tha – shaayad
tezi se bistar se kuch ragad raha tha. Shaadi ki pehle ki sex siksha
aur suhaag raat ke anubavon ke badaulat mujhe saaf saaf samajh aayi ki
woh hast prayog kar raha hai. Lekin bina haath lagaye. Woh tho apne
mardangi ko bistar ki gadde se zoron se ragad kar rati sukh paa raha
tha. Isi se bistar hil rahi thi aur awaaz aa rahi thi. Shayad usey
aurat ke saath sex karne par hone wali anubhav ko mahsoos kar raha tha.
Kitab mein kya hai mujhe dekhne ki zaroorat nahi thi. Door se
thodi roshni mein saaf nazar to nahi aa raha tha lekin dekh sakti thi
ki ek panne par kuch auraton ke nange tasveer they…shayad kaam keli
mein leen aurat mard ke jude nangey jism bhi! Dusre panne par kuch
likha hua tha…shayad unke kaarnamon ka, unke nange jismon aur gupt
ango ka khula varnan. Mujhe is ’ghinoni’ harkat se us par kaafi gussa
aaya aur jee chaha hi andar jaakar rangay haath pakdu use aur daant
phatkaar de doon. Lekin aise kitaab maine bhi padhi aur haathon se sex
ka anubhav paayi thi javani mein. Jo vaasna mujhe un dinon mein hui thi
is ladke ko bhi hui hai. Yeh umar hi aisa hai. Sex ke prati aakarshan
is umar mein har ek ko hoti hai. Hasth prayog ek gupt cheez hai lekin
sabhi karte hai. Sex gyaan paane mein iska badha mahatva bhi hai. Main
chup chaap darwaza band kar di aur laut ayi. Usey apni privacy chahiye.
Kuch gussa toh tha. Yeh kaam apni ghar mein kar sakta tha…meri ghar
mein kyun? Phir sochi, apne ghar to chhuttiyon mein hi jayega…tab tak
is aag ko kaise jalne de? Koi baat nahi…yahin karo. Phir maine
socha…mere gadde aur chaddar par apna ras chodega….eeesh! Kitna
ganda kaam!!! Aisa kitney baar usney ras choda? Muh mein laar aur
peshaab ki tarah veerya bhi kaafi personal cheez hai. Dusron ke liye
achchoot si. Bechara aur kar bhi kya sakta hai. Mujhe subah chaddar
dhoney ke liye daalni hai. Gadde ko baad mein dekhungi.
Inhi khayalon mein magn hokar apne bedroom ki bistar par leth gayi.
Neend nahi aa rahi thi. Bhaanje ki harkat dimaag mein chaayi rahi.
Apney kunwari din yaad aye. Kab se kar raha tha yeh harkat? Padaku
budhdhu mein itni sex ki prerna kaisi? Kitab kaha se laya? Kya jaanta
hai sex ke barey mein? Veerya skhalan ke waqt seethkari bharta hai kya?
Charam sukh par kaisa feeling hota mardon ke liye? Khayal aur bhi
rangeen honey lage. Uska ling kaisa hai, kitna badha hai, veerya kaisa
hoga? Kya usne kisi ladki ke saath kiya? Uski koi girlfriend to nahi
jiske saath woh siex kiya ho? Kisne bataya ise svyam sukh ke barey
mein? Ladken svayam sukh paane ke liye ke kitne tareekon se apne ang ko
prerit karte hai? Ekanth mein hast maithun karney ke baad jab veerya
chodte to uska kya karte? Bhaanje ki veerya ka gandh kaisa hai.
Badan pura paseeney se bheeg gayi thi. Kaafi garam ho chuki thi. Turant
haathon se apni choti ko prerit karne lagi. Dimaag me vikrut
aalochanayen abhi bhi kuch bachi thi. Ji karne laga ki bhanje ki tarah
kaamang ko kisi cheez ke saath ragad kar sukh pauun? Meri nazar ek moti
mombatti par padhi jo aksar bijli jaane par jalati thi. Bistar ke bagal
ke table pe tha. Usey haath mein lekar aazmaayi. Kafi bada aur mota sa
tha…lambey samay tak jalne vaali. Mombatti ko bistar se lambayi ki
hisaab sat kar rakh diya theek us jagah jahan meri yoni padti jab main
leth jati.Phir maine theek upar leth gayi aur adjust ki taaki mombatti
ki lambayi meri yoni ke theek neeche ho. Yoni ko batti se dabayi toh ek
madhur anubhav hua. Yoni aur batti ke beech meri nighty aur petticoat
ke kapdey they.Is wajah se dard ya chubhan nahi thaa. Leth kar maine
jawani ki un kitabon ki kahaniyan yaad ki aur dheere se yoni ko batti
se ragadne lagi. 15 minute ke baad bijli ki ek tez jhatka sa feeling
mere masthisk mein bhar gayi aur mujhe samundar ki uthti girti unchi
leheron ke tarah ek atyant hi romanchak charm sukh ka anubhav hua. Zor
ki seetkariyan bharti hui us charam sukh ka anand liya maine. Pati dev
ko achi tarah malaoom tha ki main kabhi kabhi hast maithun kar leti
hoon. Kai baar meri siskiyan sunkar uth jaate aur gaur se mujhe
dekthey, Unke ankhon ke saamne he main apni yoni ko zoron se prerit
karte rahti aur madak swaron mein mil rahi sukh ka anand leti. Ab ki
zordaar seethkariyon se pati jaage aur boley ”Chup chaap karo na. Yaa
dusre kamre mein jaakar ragad lo”. Mujh par unke baaton ka koi asar
naki hua.. Nigthy aur petticoat yoni ke sraavon se gili ho chuki thi.
Shareer halka hua aur ek meethi neend meri battiyan bujha di.
Sab logon ke dimaag mein sex ki prerna aur dabav ke jaise nahi hoti.
Kuch logon mein sex ki ichcha bahut hoti hai toh kuch logon mein sex ki
ichcha maamuli si hoti hai. 19 saal ke umar mein Main un ladkiyon mein
se hoon jinme kaam vaasna aur rati ki ichcha kuch zyada hi ubhar uthi.
Shaadi mere liye us dvaar ka taala tha jisko kholna mere jaison kunvari
ladkiyon ke liye paabandh tha. Meri kuch saheliyon ke boyfriend they
jinke saath unhonen is dvaar ko todh daale. Par mein aisi parivar se
thi jahan ichchaon ko laaj aur izzat ke bal par daba deni chahiye.
Shaadi ke baad koi paabandhi nahin hai.
Kam umar mein shaadi ho gayi thi lekin mera shareer shaadi se puri
tarah se sahmat thi. Kam umar mein hi meri mahwaari shuru ho gayi thi
aur mein paripakwa ho gayi thi ek mard ko sukh dekar uski bachey ki maa
banne ke liye. 19 saal ki umar mein meri jism ek 25 saal ki aurat ki
jawani se bhari thi. Suhaag raat ko maine sirf thode hi der tak laaj
sharm ki dhong ki aur pehle hi raat main ladki se aurat ban gayi jab
mere pati ne meri kaumarya bhang karte apni javani ko mere yauvan me
saamaa di aur apna beej bo diye. Puri tarah se vivastra, maine har
ullanghan ko tod di aur pati ko apni achooyi marmaang khulkar paros di.
Patidev nein meri un har ang ko daba daba kar tatole aur choomne lage
jinhe aaj taj mere siva aur koi nahi dekhe. Pati ki us madbhari sakht
mardangi ko jab maine apne haath mein li to mera man us madhur anubhav
ko puri tarah se sambhaal nahi paya aur mein kaamuk seetkariyan bharthi
hui use daba daba kar apne mad bhari youn ang se mila di.
Suhaag raat vaise hi kati jaise maine sapna dekha. Par meri zindagi
sirf ek din ki khusi thi. Pati ki choti soch, choti aatma samman,
nikammapan ityadi bahut jaldi hi bahar aaye. Khushi ke kuch pal jaldi
hi khatam ho gaye aur hamare beech ek barf ki deewar banne lagi joh
seedhe bistar par khatam ho rahi thi. Pati apne kamzoriyon ko patni par
zaahir karne lag gaye toh shaadi ki garmi lagbhag khatam hi samjho.
Bilkul mere mata pita ki tarah pati bhi meri khubsurati se pareshan
the. Unki naakaamyaabi mere khubsoorati se har pal haar rahi thi. Unke
zehen mein ek hi khayal tha ki log yahi baat kar rahe honge ki aise
haseen biwi ke saath aisa nakamyab insaan kaisa? Is chote kahayal ke
vajah se voh mere saath ankhen milana bhi chod diye. Bistar par barf ki
deewar jam chuki thi aur hamare donon ke beech meelon ka faasla bana di
jiske karan hamari milan puri tarah se bandh ho gayi. 20 saal ke umar
mein hi meri vivahit jeevan ka aahri patta gir chuka tha. Kabhi Kabhi
unke man mein thodi si aatma vishwas ubharti aur woh raat ko mere upar
chad jaate mujhe aazmane ke liye. Aise maukon par mein bhi kulkar unka
saath deti yahi sochkar ki bhujti diye mein tel daal kar jyoti ko aur
tej karoon. Lekin jyoti thodi der mein hi bhuj jaati aur woh bina kuch
haasil kiye hi dher ho jaate. Aur woh diya mere andar aisi aag lagakar
bujh jaati jo mujhe raat bhar jalati rehti aur aakhir maike ki
saheliyon se mili hast prayog ke upchar se khudh ko shaant karti.
Pitaji is berang shaadi ko apni naakaamyabi ke kisson mein ek aur kissa
banakar muh modh liye. Behnen bachon ke parvarish mein magn mujhse door
ho gaye. Maa bhi kya karti, khudh haalat se majboor mujhe bhi vahi
naseeyat deti jo unhonen apni jeevan mein istemaal kiya…haalat se
sulah karlo aur puja paath mein lage raho!!! 20 saal ki umar mein puja
paath kaisa hoga jab man aur tan ki maangen zor pakad rahi hai. Man ko
kaise kaboo kare? Javaani ki aag ko kaise bhuja de?
